Shadee’s Blog

Yerp. We had quite a bit of excitement on friday.

It was sometime at night (can’t remember exactly when, just that it was a nastily early hour) when I woke up to this feint beeping sound. I’m a pretty light sleeper so I prettymuch wake up from anything.
thought it might be a garbage truck or something but I wasn’t sure so after sitting dazed for a sec I woke up mord, had him listen to it but he wasn’t sure what it was either (also still half asleep) so I started wandering through the house.
It definately seemed to be coming from inside the house. However our house is split in two and we have downstairs neighbours. And that’s where the sound seemed to be coming from.
Was starting to wonder wether it was their smoke alarm. So I went back to Mord, told him I thought it might be the smoke alarm and got dressed.
I figured it’s better to be safe than sorry. Eventhough there wasn’t any fire in our place I did smell some odd (what I thought was burnt wiring) smells in certain places.
So I grabbed the dog, grabbed the hermitcrab and put him in an empty wonton soup container lol (I know, he must be the luckiest crab to ever have lived for me to actually think about him in the sleepiness and confusion XD) and grabbed the only other thing my sleepy brain could think of grabbing, my passport.
We went outside moved the car to the other side of the street. I stayed in there with the pets while mord went to try and wake up the neighbours. because in all this time they still hadn’t turned the damn thing off.
He didn’t get any response, so instead of waiting around any longer he called 911.
Fire dept. came pretty fast. By that time Mord ‘d already tried the door again and finally they woke up so at least they were alive heh.

Turns out the boiler was broken. The flame had gone out but it’d kept dripping oil. So when the flame went back on a huge amount of accumulated oil had combusted all at once which had generated a lot of smoke.

They turned the boiler off. Just had to wait for someone from the oilco. to come and repair/replace it now.
The landlord had already been contacted so we went back inside and all was well
For a while….

Later that morning, I started not feeling so good. and I thought I smelled smoke or something.
Figured it was probably just remenants of that night.
Went to let the dog out for a quick pee in the backyard when I saw another firetruck stop.
Went over to talk to the guy approaching. He said the other guys left a tool in the basement.
I pointed him to the downstairs neighbours door since they have the access to the basement.
I had the thought of asking the guy wether they have any air testers or something and wether they could check our place out. But I thought nah… it’s most likely just smoke from earlier finally reaching us and I didn’t wanna waste the dudes time. He might’ve been on his way somewhere too.

So I went back inside and only a few mins later the fireman was knocking at our door.
Rushed in to open all the windows as wide as possible.
Apparantly the people downstairs hadn’t quite understood what was goin on and they’d turned the damn thing on again!
So I WAS right afterall, and the not feeling so good I’d written off on havin woken up in the middle of the night and a bit of long gone smoke had in fact been because I’d been chokin on nice fresh new oil smoke all morning aswell!
After blowing my nose I really saw how bad it was. nothin but black oil remnants (Sorry for the graphic detail XD).
Apparantly one of the ladies downstairs was treated for carbondioxide poisoning.
So yeah… nice way to start the weekend.
Spent the rest of the day short of breath dizzy and with a nasty oil taste in my mouth.
Mord stayed home, which I’m glad he did.
Gonna be spending the rest of the weekend recovering from that meh-ness.
Already felt heaps better the next day tho.
And I’m not coughing my lungs out anymore either heheh.

So ya, I thought that was a blogworthy event

-Dee.

Good ol’ sweet 26.
The time when you stop feeling young and start feeling old.
(ya ya ya @ anyone older than 26 who’s laughing right now. You felt that way at 26. you just don’t remember because you’re so old yer memory is starting to fade :P)

It’s also the peek age for developing psychoses and schizophrenia. Or so I’ve heard.
I’ve always wondered why.
And now I think I know.

For me at least, this time in my life has been a point where I’ve been overwhelmed by questions.
Not just the daily life kinda things like “where’ll I be in 10 years”, but also the more universal questions about life.
Beliefs and afterlife for instance.

I grew up with a Roman Catholic dad and a prettymuch Atheist mom. Though neither of them were so active in it that they were trying to pressure me in either direction.
So floating in the middle somewhere I neither developed a strong tie nor hatred towards religion.
(un?)fortunately this left me with what I consider (ofcourse you’re allowed to disagree) a very open mind.
I say “(un?)” because eye opening as it is, it also clutters your brain with way more questions than the average religious or Atheist person has to worry about.
Add a few tablespoons of weird happenings to your life and voila, utter confusion. (and indeed a great mix for creating a mentally disturbed person depending on how much one obsesses over these things on a daily basis).
So yes, I can definately see how an abundance of events and questions like that could drive someone loopy.

That + the fact that by the time you’re considered “mature” you expect most people to have picked a direction.
But even some which seem confident in what they believe or don’t believe in, be it in a God, spirits, supernatural whatever, don’t seem all too sure when you sit down alone and talk to them.
Of all the sceptics I’ve sat down with and talked to privately, I’d say about 80% had had something strange and unexplainable happen to them in their past.
Now, it’s great to hear that so many people have had weird happenings occur to them aswell, but once again it crushes the black & white views of our universe into the ground, brings up more questions and makes it even harder for someone to just settle down, and “pick one”.
Not that I ever could though.
I don’t wanna hold my hand over my eyes wave my finger around in a circle and “pick one”.
I wanna know what’s out there, what this universe is all about.
Unfortunately while wanting to know all, I also realise that knowing all will most likely make my puny human head A-Splode.

I’ve already seen part of it, and it’s only making me wanna ask even more questions.
nevertheless, I prefer eternal wonder over being a sheep. (sheep being stubborn religious people. By which I not only mean churchgoing-religious, but biased scientist-religious aswell).

Anyways, I tried to get this post to make sense and keep it in a nutshell at the same time.
But I think one of my IRC quitmessage quotes sums this confusing post up the best :

“I have seen the truth, and it makes no sense”.

-Dee.

to be stressed out, and spend all your mon-ey la la la…

Went x-mas shopping yesterday and got gifts for the family back in NL.
I figured I’d skip their birthdays from now on and just send everyone something for x-mas instead.
Easier that way, I don’t have to send several packages a year that way and I don’t have to remember as much either.
But man what a pain. People have asked me what I want for x-mas and I have absolutely no clue, so me having to come up with gifts for others sucks even more. But I managed to find something for everyone.
Least I had 2 less to worry about since one bro’s divorced and the others about to
Also wrote some x-mas cards. I can’t remember who I sent one last year, and I can’t remember who sent me any back either, so it’s gonna be pretty random again. ah well. If I pissed someone off I’m sure they’ll let me know

Gonna go get a tree next weekend. That’ll put me in a better mood. always does.
Well.. after the decorations anyway.
I think I’ll let Mord take care of those. coz when you put me, a tree, and a box full of x-mas decorations in the same room…. I swear every time I go into battle with the decorations and the tree I end up going into one of those famous Donald Duck fits lol.

But when it’s done… and there’s snow outside, and it’s nice and warm inside with a nice x-mas tree and a hot chocolate… Mmmmmmr
Course all that ends when I actually have to go outside to walk the dog
But I’m still lookin forward to a tree

Apart from that nothing new really.
Still playin WoW.
Tempted to delete my mage, just haven’t enjoyed playing her much.
Thinking of making an undead priest… I have a special name in mind…

This one’ll be hard to describe.
For people not interested in reading an entire rant I’ll just put it in a nutshell:
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Ignorant People Suck
They’re not worth trying to teach because yer talking to a brick wall anyway.
So instead of hanging around em and be irritated by lame comments that ruin yer day,
It’s time to move on.
There.
________

Spent 4 years as a regular in an IRC channel. Had a Blast.
I’d like to think people there didn’t hate me all too much..?
Unfortunately some people still think the only reason I possibly could’ve gotten ops there is because
a. I’m female and b. I’m married to one of the other ops.

Now I’m not much of a feminist at all. I know that the stereotypical bitch of a woman exists. And that there’s lots of em.
I also know that there are women who use their gender to get advantages. And I loathe them.
People who actually know me will know I do.
So to basically be called one of those, after all the years I’ve been there and participated in the community, was.. well I was surprised at how much it hurt tbh. Because I’ll usually join in and laugh along with gender related jokes as loud as the guys. But I realised that today these guys really weren’t joking… Which was totally new to me. I’ve always been a tomboy so I’ve always been used to being treated like “one of the guys” everywhere, IRL and online. So ya, it just felt like quite a stab in the back.

I spent a minute trying to fight that lame arsed assumption but then I realised it was just gonna be ignored (and ofcourse it was).
Something like that changes everything. You think people know you well enough to accept ya, then you find out they really don’t.
So instead of going back there and be irked I decided it’s time to move on.
I cba to spend time dealing with people like that. Just not in the mood.

So to all the fun people I’ve chatted and bullshat with for so many years:
Thanks for an absolutely awesome time guys. You kept my laughing muscles in the best shape possible for the past 4 years
Guess all strings are prettymuch cut now with me not visiting any of the forums anymore either.
Except for a few closeknit peeps which ofcourse I’ll keep in touch with regularly.
For the rest of yaz, least you know where to find my e-mail address and occasional ramblings and rants.
And if not, ah well.. I’ve been known to move on and disappear from regular IRC servers/channels in the past

Gotta keep my record up

-Dee.

w0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000t!!!!!!!!1

I finally got it! Picked up my Epic mount last night.
With some help from my guildies (they insisted… a lot… lol) I got the last of the gold I needed together.
And they went along to pick it up in Darny
I chose the Swift Mistsaber. Had my eye on that1 for a while

Below’s a better look at it after I leapt back and forth over the dreaded IF chasms for about 10 mins XD
(Yeah the occasional lagspike still made me fall in once or twice but it’s ok coz when I fell to the bottom there were more people with epic mounts there, shamefully scurrying about, trying to get out again without being seen :P)

So a HUGE HUGE thanks/hug/lick/poke/picknose to Morduun, Saarrt and Gindaeg for pitching in.
I’ll be getting ya that gold back as soon as I can. And after that, help you guys get yours aswell

-Dee